I had two groups of friends throwing huge New Year's parties, and I felt like this decision was making me pick between them. When it came down to it, I decided that it's time for me to settle down, act like a big girl, and commit. And that meant going to the same party two years in a row.
Last night, on New Year's Day, a friend was having people over to watch the games. Since USC had already made a miserable showing, my night consisted mainly of talking and catching up with people. It was the same group of friends from New Year's, even though a few of them had done a midnight run instead of the party, but most of my night on New Year's had consisted of dancing and making my way around the room to at least say "hi" to everyone, so I looked forward to the chance to catch up.
As I was talking to one of my newer friends--we've known each other for about 3 weeks--the question, as it always is asked, of "where are you from" came up.
This is always a difficult question for me to answer, since at this point I could probably consider myself from Rock Hill, except for the fact that I graduated from Clover High. Add in several moves before that, and I'm used to only being in the same spot for 4 years, max.
So, this new friend asked me a question right out that I can honestly say I had never been asked before. "Do you find it difficult to make deep connections with people?"
And the pure and simple answer is, yes.
I love people, anyone who has ever met me knows this, but I have a hard time letting people in. I'm usually ready to move on after a year or two, I don't like to get close enough that someone associates me with a "clique," and my longest relationship was 3 months.
So this year, as a New Year's resolution, I've decided to try and commit more, particularly with girl friends. I've decided that, like my New Year's, it's time for me to be a big girl and let people in more.
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